Well, I have made up my mind. I'll be moving out of Satan George, Utah sometime in the next 3 months. I'm going back to Idaho, but not home. I suppose that I'll need to go to Sick City, Idaho for about 6 month to a year to get back on my feet. Utah has been harsh, and I won't look back. Well, technically, I'll have to while I finish up my book about all the misadventures I've sustained here in Satan George, Utah.
As it now stands, all I need is a dedicated couple of weeks to place the finishing touches on a few of my books and a place to wait for all the subsequent rejections. I just haven't got the resources to do that here. If I can go to my grandma's house, I'll be able to dedicate more time to the effort and concentrate better on what I need to do to improve my writings.
The disadvantages about moving back to Sick City, Idaho are great, as covered by a previous entry sometime towards the beginning of '05. But, there just isn't any reason for me to stay in this God-forsaken socialist town any longer. I never should have attempted a life in Utah.
I remember back in the summer of '04, before I started having so much trouble with the city police, when I used to sit at the gazebo and visit with all the homeless guys who passed through, I used to tell them, "if only I had a laptop computer, that would be my ticket to the future!" I knew, that if I could concentrate on writing a book, I wouldn't need to depend on anyone else for a job ever again. I'm to that point now. The threshold of my new future.
It's taken a while, and I've taken my time, but it's time to get it done. I have been content with the homeless lifestyle, but other than the perfect opportunity it provided me to write my books, it is not desirable. Nor is it necessary or convenient any more.
Not to mention the fact that the girls have never accepted me. I hate them. I cannot wait to get back to Idaho, just for the girls. I am so tired of these 'daughter's of Zion' as they are referred to in the books of Isaiah and 2 Nephi. I affectionately call them FUB's, or f@#%ing Utah b!@#hes, with all their haughtiness and all other abominations mentioned in Isaiah 3 and 2 Nephi 13. They're not even any different in church!!!
And oh to escape the socialism. Everyone wants to control everyone else. There's nothing here but cowardice. Interestingly enough, that to is prophesied in the same books and chapters of the Bible and Book of Mormon as the daughter's of Zion. I have often wanted to get up in church and preach against these foolish traditions and discriminations. I would title my talk [sermon] 'The Party's Over' from the song Willie Nelson sang.
But that would be futile. No amount of preaching will divert the prophesies of these latter days. They are here, for those who are looking, as signs of the time preceding the second coming of Jesus Christ. They are a necessary factor in the grand scheme of things. My only fear is that since the signs were written for the whole world to witness, the plagues I have mentioned above would almost certainly have to infect Idahoans as well.
Perhaps it will not be too late for me to enjoy Idaho once more the way I used to. I hope I may still be able to meet woman not under the category of a 'daughter of Zion'.