Well, I'm back in Sick, Idaho. I got back Friday in time for New Years. I have gotten some good sleep now that I'm back in my own bed, or sleeping bag as the case is.
Yesterday, I watched Sleepless in Seattle. I find it quite humorous that I'm going through the same pain over 'beautiful' that Tom Hank's character does over the dead wife. There have been a bunch of great lines that have really struck me. For instance, radio doc says people who love once have a greater chance of loving again. Very interesting. I wonder who came up with that line and whether it has a foundation in reality.
I don't watch too much movies staring Meg Ryan anymore. Yesterday I saw three in a row. She reminds me too much of 'Beautiful' (I know, the names not very original - maybe that was the problem). So does Jennifer Aniston and Elizabeth Mitchell. Elizabeth Mitchell more so, she's got to be the best look-a-like. So you know how attractive she is.
Here's a line I thought was great: "That's your problem, you don't want to be in love, you want to be in love in a movie." Thing is, I feel like I'm in love in a movie. The problem with being in love in a movie is that I'm the guy who loves the girl but never gets her. In Sleepless in Seattle, I'm Bill Pullman. The supporting actor. The loser. The comic relief. And what I fool I was.
I often ask myself why I was ever in live with this woman anyway. She never did have any of the physical attributes I look for in a girl. I mean, Meg Ryan, Jennifer Aniston, and Elizabeth Mitchell look a lot like her, but I thought I was (am) more attracted to girls who look like Emma Watson, Emily Browning, Alyssa Malono, Minnie Driver, Marisa Torme, Jill Hennessy, Jennifer Lopez, Sandra Bullock, Rachel Weisz, Emma Watson, Catherine Zeta Jones, Phoebe Cates, Mariska Hargitay, Katie Holmes, Kristin Davis, Michelle Kwan, Katie Couric, Mandy Moore, Angie Harmon, and Emma Watson. Just to name a few.
Yet I am obsessed with her. Arggg! I wish I could forget about her. Writing about it helps. I used to keep a journal in which I detailed day to day events concerning us and how I was thinking of her. It was just my journal, but I wrote a lot about her. I burned them all a few years ago. One of my only regrets. It was a really awesome bonfire though.
Why didn't I fall in love with her little sister? Now she's a beauty! While she was growing up she was the spit'n image of Catherine Zeta Jones. She was always better looking. Gorgeous. I'll bet she wouldn't have turned me down. Why couldn't I have fallen in love with any other girl period!? Well, according to Sleepless in Seattle, I still may.
Any girl out there interested?